jay's song. 你比从前快乐。
i was never going to be irene kng. simply because i dont think i am ever going to love a guy that much to swallow all the betrayal and hurt.
i asked you did you find that feeling of love? are you happier now?
and u replied sometimes you are happier.
with that answer, i know i made the best decision for both of us. being happy sometimes may not be enough, but it would have been better than both of us dragging it longer and ending up being unhappy all the time.
i don't have any words left to say. do i say thank you, for not lying to me? do i scold you, for letting my belief shatter into pieces? do i treat you as a friend, even though i do not want to hear about 'your clique' and what you've been doing? how am i supposed to treat you now? who do you treat me as now?
i still love you. but i let you go. and give myself the freedom to explore a wider world.
even though reading those smses of the 2 days after we broke up made me cry to sleep.